since myspace bolgging is null and uncontrollable

I'm sad.

Like, really sad.  Like I googled mental breakdown and I am convinced I am having one sad.  And idk how or why but I am still lucky enough to be surrounded by the most amazing people who are trying to get me through it.

I have zero motivation for work, it takes me an hour to et up in the morning and then I ache like no one's business, I never feel rested and I am having manic episodes.  It's worse than I have ever felt.  SO-I cut out drinking (which is leading to me eating a ton more sugars) and I am going to try and change my diet.  I also contacted a psychologist.  I am so tired of feeling this way.  I don't want to lose everything that matters to me...

God help me.